Trudnoca

Priča mame K.R. | Story of mommy K.R.

Moja priča počinje godinu i po dana pre nego što sam saznala da sam trudna.

Suprug i ja smo počeli da živimo zajedno, spremali svadbeno veselje i jedva čekali da proširimo porodicu. Medjutim, na pregledu mi je rečeno da uopste nemam ovulaciju, a detaljnijim analizama je utvrđeno da mi je progesteron jaaaaako nizak.

Krenuli smo sa terapijom, međutim, doktorka je bila jasna:

„Imate 6 meseci da poradite na tome da ostaneš u drugom stanju, ali u ovakvim okolnostima to će biti jako teško, nemaš plodne dane. Najbolje je da veštačkim putem (injekcijama) izazovemo ovulaciju.“

Naravno, napričla je jos svašta ali meni je u glavi odzvanjalo samo ono da neću moći tako lako da ostanem trudna.

I tu krece moja agonija.

Svakodnevno razmišljanje o tome, sopstveno mučenje time što još uvek nemam bebu u stomaku. Gde god da krenem, na svakom koraku vidim trudnicu.

Svi su trudni sem mene!


My story begins a year and a half before I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I started living together, getting ready for a wedding party, and couldn’t wait to expand our family. However, on examination, I was told that I had no ovulation at all, and more detailed analysis found that my progesterone was very low. We started the therapy, however, the doctor was clear: „You have 6 months to work on staying fit, but in these circumstances it will be very difficult. You do not have fertile days. It is best to induce ovulation by artificial injection.“ Of course, there was more to it, but the only thing that sounded in my mind was that I wouldn’t be able to stay pregnant so easily. And that’s where my agony begins. Thinking about it everyday, my own torment by not having a baby in my stomach yet. Everywhere I go, I see a pregnant woman every step of the way. Everyone is pregnant except me!

Bila sam ljuta na ceo svet. Opterećena. Čitala sam sve i svašta o tome kako najlakše ostati u drugom stanju. Sve su to bile same gluposti. Terapijom sam uspela da popravim progesteron, međutim, moja situacija se nije menjala. Svakog meseca kada bi mi kasnila menstruacija, trčala sam u apoteku po test, medjutim na njemu nikada nije bilo druge linije. Stoji jedna jako crvena, i stojim i ja i čekam po sat vremena zureci u štapic i isčekujuci da će nekom magijom da se pojavi i ona druga.

Međutim, nije je bilo. Onda bih plakala danima i suprug je počeo jako da se brine za mene. Blokada je išla iz glave. Onog trenutka (godinu i po dana nakon tog pregleda kod doktorke) kad sam rešila da prestanem da mučim i sebe i supruga, kada sam rešila da to na neko vreme stavim po strani, ostala sam trudna.

Uvek sam maštala o tome kako ću da saopštim suprugu da sam trudna. Htela sam da to bude majica sa natpisom „Bićeš najbolji tata“ koju ću da mu stavim na krevetu da vidi ujutro cim se probudi ali nisam ni pomislila da sam trudna iako mi je menstruacija kasnila par dana..

Tako da, kad sam napokon rešila da uradim test, bila sam toliko zaprepašćena i zbunjena da sam ga samo pozvala i kroz smeh i suze mu vrisnula u slusalicu :

„Trudni smo!“


I was angry with the whole world. Loaded. I read everything and everything about the easiest way to stay in a different state. It was all nonsense. With therapy I was able to repair progesterone, however, my situation did not change. Every month when my period was late, I ran to the pharmacy for a test, but there was never another line on it. There is one very red one, and I am standing there, waiting for an hour staring at the stick, waiting for some other magic to appear. However, there was none. Then I would cry for days and my husband began to take great care of me. The blockage was going out of her mind. The moment (a year and a half after that doctor checkup) when I decided to stop torturing myself and my husband, when I decided to put it aside for a while, I was pregnant. I always dreamed of telling my husband that I was pregnant. I wanted it to be a „You will be the best dad“ T-shirt that I will put on his bed to see in the morning as soon as he wakes up, but I never thought I was pregnant even though my menstruation was a few days late .. So when I finally decided to take the test, I was so amazed and confused that I just called him and screamed at him through laughter and tears: „We’re pregnant!“

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