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Prvi dani | First days

Prvi dani sa mojim prvencem Dunjom bili su mi nešto najlepše a ujedno i najteže u životu. Teže čak i od samog porođaja. Počevši od porodilišta. Kada se porođaj završio, posle 2 ipo sata su me prebacili na neonatologiju. U sobi sam imala dve cimerke, dobre devojke. Posle 6 sati od porođaja, doneli su mi bebu na prvi podoj. Mlada, neiskusna, uplašena kako ću dalje sama sa bebom, da li ću imati mleka, kako ću ako se zaplače a ja ne budem bila pored nje…. Sve me je to vodilo dublje u depresiju. Doneli su mi bebu, mala, buckasta, prelepa. Sestre kao i uvek grube, nije njihovo pa ih baš briga, nezainteresovano objašnjavaju kako se doji beba.

Majko,morate da stavite bebu ovako i da joj ubacite celu bradavicu u usta!!

Viknu sestra kao da ja nešto neću ili ne želim. Okrete se i ode. Ja počinjem da plačem. Ne znam ni šta ću, ni kako ću. Samo da odem kući. Kod mog muža, on će mi pomoći sve iako je muško. Tri dana sam plakala noću kad svi zaspe ,kad me niko ne vidi. Toliko sam bila nervozna da je i beba pored mene plakala uvek. Imala sam ogromnu ranu, nisam mogla da ustanem, ni da sednem, ništa. Došao je dan pregleda, doktor mi je dao zeleno svetlo, mogu kući kao i beba. Hvala Bogu, sad će sve biti super. Ali nije. Kući sam svo vreme provodila u krevetu, nisam mogla da ustanem ni da sednem. Krvarila sam previše, rana me je bolela, unutra me je sve bolelo. Mleko mi je brzo nestalo. Prolazili su dani, nisam mogla da ustajem, jedva sam išla do kupatila. Muž mi je donosio bebu iz kreveca u krevet kada treba da je hranim, i napravi mi mleko. Prošlo je 40 dana i više, krvarenje nije stajalo, krvarila sam kao prvog dana posle porođaja. Muž me je odvezao kod lekara na pregled, primili su me odmah. Doktorka me pregleda i pita kada sam se porodila. Ja kažem 17og decembra, ona me pogleda belo i kaže, zašto nisi pre došla. Ja rekoh nisam znala da treba, rekli su mi da je normalno da krvarim 40 dana obilnije. Doktorka kaže ovoliko obilno nije normlano, pritom materica ti se nije ni vratila u normalnu veličinu niti se zatvorila, mogla si sepsu da dobiješ da nisi došla sad. Došla sam u zadnjem momentu. Pitala me je da li su mi dali neku injekciju posle porođaja, ja reko jedino anesteziju.

Nisu ti dali injekciju za skupljanje materice a krupu bebu si rodila?!

Ja reko nisu ništa, čak nisu ni pomenuli. Ona se začudi. Dala mi je kapi, Metilelgometrin, i rekla da ležim 3 dana i stavljam hladne obloge da se brže vrati i zatvori jer ne dojim. Baš sam bila u depresiji, prva trudnoća, prva sreća, i tako da prođem. Ležala sam par dana i pila kapi i držala obloge. Materica se vratila, nastavila sam normalan život. Mogla sam normalno da ustanem, uzmem bebu, igram se sa njom i raspoloženje se vratilo. Na svu sreću, na vreme sam otišla kod lekara, inače ne želim ni da mislim o tome sta je moglo da bude da nisam. Evo danas Dunjica ima 5 godina, sve je prošlo, nije se zaboravilo ali je prošlo.




The first days with my firstborn Dunja were some of the most beautiful and the hardest in my life.  It weighs even from birth itself.  Starting at the maternity ward.  When the delivery ended, I was transferred to neonatology after 2 and a half hours.  I had two roommates in the room, good girls.  After 6 hours of delivery, they brought my baby to me on the first birth.  Young, inexperienced, scared how I would go with the baby on my own, whether I would have milk, how if they cried and I was not by her side … All this led me deeper into depression.  They brought me a baby, small, chubby, beautiful.  The nurses, as always, are rude, it is not theirs so they don’t care, they explain disinterestedly how the baby is breastfeeding.

Mother, you have to put your baby this way and put her whole nipple in her mouth !!

My sister yelled as if I didn’t want or wanted something.  He turns and walks away.  I’m starting to cry.  I do not know what I will do, nor how I will.  Just to go home.  With my husband, he will help me with everything he is male.  For three days I cried at night when everyone fell asleep, when no one saw me.  I was so nervous that the baby beside me was always crying.  I had a huge wound, I couldn’t get up or sit down, nothing.  The day of the exam came, the doctor gave me the green light, I can go home like a baby.  Thank God everything will be great now.  But it’s not.  I spent all my time in bed, unable to get up or sit down.  I was bleeding too much, my wound hurt, everything inside hurt.  My milk ran out fast.  Days went by, I couldn’t get up, I could barely go to the bathroom.  My husband brought my baby out of bed to bed when I needed to feed her, and made me milk.  It’s been 40 days or more, the bleeding didn’t stop, I was bleeding like the first day after giving birth.  My husband drove me to the doctor for a checkup, they received me right away.  The doctor examines me and asks when I was born.  I say December 17th, she looks at me white and says, why didn’t you come first.  I said I didn’t know I should, they told me it was normal for me to bleed 40 days more profusely.  The doctor says this much is not normal, and your uterus has neither returned to normal size nor closed, you could have had sepsis if you did not come now.  I came at the last moment.  She asked me if they gave me an injection after delivery, I said only anesthesia.

„They didn’t give you a uterine injection and you gave birth to a big baby ?!“

I said nothing, they didn’t even mention it.  She was surprised.  She gave me a drop, Methylelgometrine, and told me to lie down for 3 days and put on cold packs to get back up and close faster because I’m not breastfeeding.  I was just depressed, my first pregnancy, my first happiness, and so on.  I lay there for a couple of days and drank drops and kept wraps.  The uterus came back, I went on a normal life.  I was able to get up normally, get my baby, play with her and the mood returned.  Fortunately, I went to the doctor on time, otherwise I don’t even want to think about what it might have been like if I hadn’t.  Here Dunjica is 5 years old now, everything is gone, it is not forgotten but it is gone.

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