Porođaj

Dani nakon porođaja | Days after labor

Nakon porođaja su me smestili u sobu sa još dve devojke koje su se istog dana porodile. Bebu sam videla tek sutradan oko 11,12 jer sam se porodila uveče pa nisu stigli da obave preglede. Jedva sam čekala da mi donesu mog anđela, da ga zagrlim, poljubim, pomirišem. Sestre su ga donele, pomogle da uhvati bradavicu za prvi podoj i to je to, nisu baš bile preterano raspoložene da pomognu. Ja sam imala ravne bradavice i kada je dosla jedna sestra, rekla mi je da moram kupiti silikonske, jer nema šanse da će beba moći ovako da sisa. Kupim ja, beba sisa, ali puno i bljucka, guta vazduh, sledeća sestra koja dođe mi kaže da mi ne trebaju te silikonske bradavice i da može beba i bez njih. Tako ja probam i bez njih i uspemo, snalažljivko moj mali se izborio za klopicu. Mleka sam imala dosta, bojala sam se upale, a kako mi je prvo dete, nisam znala kako da se izmuzem. Nema ko ni da ti pokaže, sestre su prilično grube, nezainteresovane, svaka priča drugačije, a ti zbunjen, ne znaš više ni šta da radiš. Srećom pa su devojke sa kojima sam bila u sobi divne, međusobno smo se pomagale, tešile, bodrile. I dan danas se skoro svaki dan čujemo, delimo savete, iskustva. Bilo mi je prilično teško u bolnici i jedva sam čekala da idemo kući. Najviše me je pogađala bahatost i nemarnost pojedinih sestara. Dešavalo mi se da se beba ukaki, ja je presvučem, ali ne umem da je zamotam u onaj povoj, da bude kao veknica, odem da zatražim pomoć, da bi mi one rekle da nije bitno, da zamotam bilo kako. Sledeće veče sestra zaboravi da dodje da presvuče moje dete u onom terminu kada je obavezno, kada sve bebe presvlače, šta ću opet sama. Tada sam bila baš emotivna i plakala sam više puta, kako mogu biti tako bezosećajne, žene smo, to su mala tek rođena bića. Ali, dobro, mislim se u sebi, proći će i to. Ipak, uživam dok gledam kako spava, gledam mu crte lica, na koga liči, mrva mala samo ručka i pajki, dok ga ja netremice posmatram i topim se. U četvrtak su što se tiče bebe hteli da nas puste kući, ali ja sam bila na pregledu i rekli su da će nas zbog mene zadržati još dan, nisam se dovoljno isčistila. Ok, nije strašno, tu su mi moje cimerke i njihove dve devojčice. Osvanu petak, ja sva srećna što ćemo kući kad ono iznenađenje. Doktorka je rekla da bi htela da pošalje bebin bris pupka, malo je crvenkast, misli da nije ništa, ali za svaki slučaj, moramo ostati još jedan dan. To me je rastužilo, odlaze mi cimerke srećne sa svojim bebama, a ja ostajem sama. To je zapravo i bila bolja opcija od onoga što je usledilo. Dovode mi jednu mamu, mlađu od mene, napornu do zla Boga,neprekidno priča o nekim glupostima, a ona oko bebe nema pojma, svoju i ne viđa jer ima žuticu, ali i kada može da bude kod nje ona radije bira da je ostavi sestrama.Toliko je bila nezainteresovana, čudna, da nisam smela da odem da se istuširam i ostavim svoju bebu koja spava sa njom. E, taj dan mi je bio najduži u životu, bio mi je mučan, samo sam plakala i molila se da što pre svane i da mi kažu:

,,Sve je u redu, možete kući.“

Tako je i bilo, čini mi se letela sam od sreće, samo da što pre izađem, više me ni rana nije bolela, ma ništa, samo kad sam dočekala tu subotu i odlazak kućici. Došao je suprug sa mojom sestrom po mene, sačekali da spreme bebu i srećno smo se uputili kući… Sledi nastavak…



After giving birth, they put me in a room with two other girls who gave birth the same day.  I only saw the baby about 11.12 the next day because I gave birth in the evening so they did not arrive to undergo examinations.  I couldn’t wait for my angel to be brought to me, to hug, kiss, smell it.  The nurses brought him in, helped him grab the nipple for the first breastfeeding and that’s it, they weren’t too in the mood to help.  I had flat nipples and when one sister came, she told me that I had to buy silicone ones because there was no way the baby would be able to suckle like this.  I buy baby boobs, but a lot of vomit, gasp, the next nurse who comes in tells me I don’t need those silicone nipples and that baby can do without them.  So I try without them, and we succeed, my resourceful little kid struggled for a trap.  I had plenty of milk, I was afraid of inflammation, and as my first child, I didn’t know how to get away.  No one to show you, the sisters are pretty rude, disinterested, every story is different, and you get confused, you don’t even know what to do anymore.  Fortunately, the girls I was in the room with were wonderful, we helped each other, comforted and encouraged each other.  And today we hear almost every day, share tips, experiences.  It was quite difficult for me at the hospital and I couldn’t wait to go home.  What struck me most was the arrogance and carelessness of the individual sisters.  I happen to have a baby jump, I change it, but I can’t wrap it in that bandage, it will be like a veil, I go to ask for help, so that they tell me it doesn’t matter, to wrap it anyway.  The next night my sister forgets to come over to change my baby when it’s mandatory, when all the babies change, what will I do again.  Then I was really emotional and I cried many times, how can I be so insensitive, we are women, they are small newborn beings.  But, well, I think to myself, it will pass.  Still, I enjoy watching him sleep, looking at his face, who looks like a tiny little handle and spider, while I stare at him and melt.  On Thursday, as far as the babies were concerned, they wanted to let us go home, but I was examined and they said that they would keep us for another day because of me, I did not clear myself enough.  Ok, it’s not terrible, my roommates and their two girls are here.  Good morning, I’m all happy to be home when the surprise comes.  The doctor said she would like to send her baby’s navel swab, she’s a little reddish, she thinks it’s nothing, but just in case, we have to stay another day.  It made me sad, my roommates happy with their babies leave, and I’m left alone.  It was actually a better option than what followed.  They bring me one mom, younger than me, hard-working to the evil of God, constantly talking about some nonsense, and she has no idea about her baby;  .She was so uninterested, weird, that I didn’t dare go take a shower and leave my baby sleeping with her.  Well, that day was the longest in my life, it was painful for me, I just cried and prayed that it would dawn as soon as possible and that they would tell me:

„It’s all right, you can go home.“

So it was, it seems I was flying out of luck, only to get out as soon as possible, the wound didn’t hurt anymore, nothing, only when I met that Saturday and went to the cottage.  My husband and my sister came to pick me up, they waited for their baby to be ready, and we happily headed home …

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